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This has clicked with me in a new way because I a conoscere Dio e a riporre la mia fiducia in Lui
have been realizing that one of the things I cra- mi ha aiutato ed aiuta a superare le mie paure.
ve most deeply is safety. For a long time I have
tried to control things around me, to be perfor- Personalmente, fidarmi di Dio significa con-
mance oriented, trying to be perfect. tinuare a rivolgermi a Lui, creando quel senti-
mento di fiducia e sicurezza, con la consapevo-
I have discovered that I can trace this need for lezza che qualcuno si preoccupa per me e che
safety back to the time of my childhood when Dio stesso diventa il mio posto sicuro!
my parents got divorced. It felt like the earth
disappeared under my feet. Everything was
chaotic, I felt powerless and there was nothing
I could do about my parents‘ situation. I grew
up fast taking responsabilities as a “small adult”
without experiencing the healthy development
of a child. I developed protection mechanisms
against my fears. I would try to be perfect and
control the world around me so I would not feel
vulnerable.
Even in spite of these things, learning every day
to know God and to put my trust in God has
helped me to overcome my fears. For me, tru-
sting God means to continue to turn to Him, Pensare, vedere e immaginare di essere sdraiata
and away from the naysayers. Trust in God for su un‘amaca mi aiuta molto a trovare il mio po-
me is a feeling of confidence and security that sto sicuro (naturalmente l‘amaca è una metafo-
someone cares about me that God Himself is ra). L‘amaca è Dio. Mi sento al sicuro quando mi
my safe place! appoggio a Dio, non devo fare nulla, posso esse-
re semplicemente me stessa, lasciando andare le
Thinking, seeing and imagining I‘m lying in a mie paure, rilassandomi in pace ricevendo nuo-
hammock helps me a lot to find my safe place ve forze ed energie, sapendo che l‘amaca è il mio
(of course the hammock is a metaphor). The Dio, mio Padre, che mi sostiene, mi protegge e
hammock is God. I feel safe when I lean on combatte al posto mio. Solo Lui può soddisfare
God. I feel like I do not have to do anything. I il mio profondo desiderio di sicurezza!
can just be myself. I do not need to use energy
to do anything. I can let go of my fears and I can L‘esperienza di Dio giornaliera nella mia vita,
peacefully relax because I know that the ham- nel corso degli anni, ha cambiato il mio modo
mock is My God who supports me, protects me, di vivere. Sono sempre molto più rilassata e pa-
fights and works in my place. cifica, affidandomi sempre meno ai miei mecca-
nismi di protezione.
Only he can satisfy my deep craving for securi-
ty, he can calm my fears. Over the years I have In conclusione di questo breve articolo, vorrei
grown and I can find much peace and security soffermarmi con la Scrittura che ha parlato al
in God, relying less to my protection mechanis- mio cuore nel corso degli anni: “Io dico al Si-
ms. Experiencing God in my life has changed gnore: Tu sei il mio rifugio e il mio luogo di si-
my perspective and I am much more relaxed. curezza; il mio Dio in cui confido” Salmo 91:2

I would like to conclude this short article with
the scripture that has spoken to my heart over
the years: “This I delcare about the Lord: He
alone is my refuge, my place of safety; He is my
God, and I trust Him” - Ps 91:2

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