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his privilege to pursue in�macy with Christ in a       -’No man ever hated his own flesh’” (p. 30) The
        life of prayer, fas�ng, obedience, and manual          problem is that I tend to narrow my own flesh
        labor in the new, obscure, and poor, monastery         to simply my own body or (worse) bodily de-
        at Cîteaux. Soon though he would leave the             sire. Doing so means I reduce my existence to
        peace he found here to be the founding abbot           only a few things. What these things are speci-
        of the monastery at Clairvaux.                         fically doesn’t ma�er over much.


        The peace he found in Clairvaux would fre-             What does ma�er is that this reduc�onis�c
        quently be interrupted--sacrificed really--as he       view of self hides the awareness that I am de-
        was drawn into the various ecclesias�c and             pendent on both God and my neighbor.
        geo-poli�cal controversies of the Middle Ages.         Built on this narrow and superficially view of
        Papal schisms, theological arguments, the cru-         my own iden�ty, self-love “increase(s) too
        sades, and the pe�y jealousy of his brother mo-        much.” It becomes “like a river” that “over-
        nas�cs would all at one �me or another intrude         flow(s) and flood(s) the lands about it.” It is
        upon his solitude. Each �me he is called to do         only the command to love my neighbor as my-
        so, the abbot of Clairvaux sacrifices the quiet of     self Bernard says that can serve as the “dyke”
        monas�c life and the fellowship of his brother         that keeps the love of self from causing great
        monks because love requires that we sacrifice          harm to self and others; he calls this harmful
        ourselves first to God and then for our neigh-         desire “voluptuousness” (p. 31)
        bor’s good. We “are bound to love God,” Ber-
        nard writes, because “He first loved us” (p. 9).       While this sounds all rather stern, he also says
        This obliga�on is bound up not simply with Go-         that we should think our ourselves “as much as
        d’s love for us. Created as we are in the image        ever [we] will, if only [we] take care to think
        of God Who is Himself love, our love for Him           equally of [our] neighbor.” Again, this is not a
        and our neighbor is intrinsic to who we are as         life hack or a u�litarian scheme that offers the
        Chris�ans and human beings. Failure, or worse          “form of godliness” while “denying its power”
        refusal, to love God or my neighbor is not only        (2 Timothy 3:5). It is rather “the just limit impo-
        a moral failing but to inflict a deep wound on         sed upon [us] by … [our] own being and by …
        my iden�ty.                                            conscience” so that we are “not carried away
        Let’s turn now to the text of On Loving God and        by … selfishness to … destruc�on” and le� “at
        see what we might see.                                 the mercy of the enemies of [our] soul(s)” the
                                                               powers of sin and death (p. 31).
        Four Degrees of Love
        I Love Myself, for the Sake of Myself                  Thanks to the superabundance of grace “which
        As was men�oned a moment ago, human na-                always heals that which is infirm and completes
        ture is weak and frail. This is not simply a           that which is lacking,” (Orthodox prayer of Or-
        ma�er of moral failing because of sin or the vul-      dina�on) “Selfishness becomes benevolence
        nerability of the body to depriva�on, injury, or       by taking a wider range” (p. 31). Though we
        illness. All of these are certainly true even as       are, Bernard concludes, “by nature animal and
        they are all secondary. For Bernard, we are first      carnal, with no love but for [ourselves],” grace
        of all ontologically weak. Such weakness is in-        brings us “through self-love to love of God.” It
        herent in being a creature. I am, in an absolute       is this first degree of love that sets the stage for
        sense, dependent on God for my existence               the next two as we slowly come to recognize
        even as, in a rela�ve sense, I am dependent            that “all [our] ability, ... for good, [we have]
        upon my neighbor--first my parents and then            from God, and without Him [we are] able to do
        everyone else. (1) Far from being a nega�ve re-        nothing” (p. 32).
        ality, our ontological weakness is the source of
        love and so our greatest strength.                     Loving God for What He Does and Who He Is
        The web of ontological, material and social de-        The no�on of divine simplicity (Vallicella, 2019)
        pendence that characterizes my life as a crea-         highlights that there is no division between
        ture is why I “love first by nature, not precept-      Who God is and what He does. In other words


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